Bitter History of Gurkha Warriors

Today I watched the series "The forgotten Army". The main character Lieutenant Sodhi and his army fight for Indian Independence during World War II as part of the British Army. The journey and sacrifice of the Indian National Army from its soldiers' point of view is shown in the series.

So, I thoght to relate the this with our own history. We all Nepalase are proud that Nepal was never colonized but there are many bitter histories behind this. We have heard many stories about the brivary of Gurkhas but the stories about their pains have been untold. Though Nepal didn't take part in any of the world war, more than 2 lakhs of Nepalese were killed in those wars. These were the Gurkha soldiers, renowned worldwide for their bravery. But the history of Gurkha army itself is tragically inhuman and political. 

When Britains got defeated in Sindhuligadi they came to know that even the outnumberd troops can be deadly. When Nepal got defeated and Amar Singh Thapa was compelled to sign Malaun Sandhi. Britain took the advantage of this treaty and start recruiting Gurkha Army.

The main reason for recruitment was cheap and quality manpower and they even didn't have considerable number of manpower of their own origin.

To supress the nations they had conquered and to fight the war they used armies from the local origin but this was not the good idea. So the most beneficial subject to them were the young farmers from the rural areas of Nepal who were unaware from such politics. They were unaware, straightforward and  hardworking. At that time people were very poor due to Anglo Nepal war and British began calling Nepalese Villagers for recruitment. So, many youths joined them for economic relief. During the Rana resime, Ranas were always dependent in Birtish to sustain in power. Bir Shumsher made more easier for recruitment. After selling the Nepalese youth Ranas received the royality of 10 millions each year and the number of soldiers has doubled this time.

During first world war 1.5 lakhs soldiers and during second word war 4 lakhs were sent for the war.  Britain had to face a huge number of casualties during WWl where about 50,000 Gurkhas had been killed but as Nepalese were primarily kept in front line this number increased to 70,000. But the number Brithish Embassy  gave to Nepalese government was just 8000. Similarly the number of Nepalese killed in WWII was  1,46,000 but, the again the  Britian only claimed 6000 kills. Apart from death, there is no account to casualties and suffering  of Nepalese in the war.

Hiding the painful aspects of the war and spreading the story of its bravery and heroism is propaganda still today. Similarly another propaganda was  present Nepalese as poor and military race. By claiming to provide employment to poor Nepalese. Britain pretend itself as a saviour. But, Nepal which was a country of farmers with fertile land was neither poor before recruitment nor was there any other purpose except to use them in war by Brithish. On the contrary, it was Gurkha soldier that rescued Britian. If the Gurkhas hadn't fought, Britians would have lost to Germany and Japan in WW2.  

Even after the war was over, Britain sent thousands of Gurkha soldiers empty handed without any pension or without any facility given to war veterans.  Gurkha soldiers have fought many wars for British but they have not received same rights as their native soldiers.  This is the true story of Gurkja Brigade . It was a result of heavy strategic planning of Britain with many hidden agendas. Unless we know of history and learn, we will keep repeating the same mistake.

References: Gurkha's blue, Valor: The history of Gurkhas

Pramod Ghimire

Get know how to write a good SOP (Statement Of Purpose)

Statement of Purpose (SOP): All you need to know!

Statement of Purpose is a long essay that is often asked by universities abroad. The essay, usually about 1000 words, seeks to understand the candidate’s life, the motivations for the chosen career path and his/her goals.

There are many elements to a Statement of Purpose or a SOP as it is famously referred to. The Universities could ask question-based essays or simply to present your statement of purpose. Until and unless categorically asked, a SOP must include your goals, the career path you have taken up so far as well as your academic progress. Other elements that are further important to the SOP are also the personal motivations that lead you to choose the university/course you have applied to as well as how you intend to use that experience to achieve that goal.

Your SOP must have the answers of these questions.
1. Why me?
2. How are you going to pay your tution fee and who is sponsoring you
3. What are your leadership and activities
4. How passionate are you towards the subject that you are choosing
5. Why that University?
6. Why that country?
7. Don't go beyond the word limits

 First of all write a strong introductory paragraph. Don't start with quotes as this is the old method. First paragraph always has a huge impact on your SOP. Don't mention all the things in same paragraph resume is must in first paragraph . Similarly on body paragraph write about  your experiences, achievements, chalanges that you have faced. Your SOP must reflect how you are as a person, passionate are you, how are your goals and how are you going to achieve them. Likewise,  your last paragraph is summary of first and second paragraphs. It must have very strong final statement and  shorter the paragraph better will be the SOP.

Separation of paragraph is must. Always use active voice while writing SOP. Don't use negative statements. Using (I) in each sentence doesn't sounds good. Don't make extraordinary using though vocabulary.  Write more specific sentences.  I was in top 5 students in my class and my grades were good this doesn't sound good. You must write " I was in top 5 students among 200 students ". Don't write the things like ( I hope to,  I seem to) instead use strong sentence like ( I want,  I have to do this).

What they are looking for
1. They look at the clarity of your thought.
2. How focused you are towards your goal?
3. What you have done so far to achieve it?
4. They will will look at your passion, how passionate you are towards your subject?
5.  What sets your application different than thousands application that they get daily
6. Honestly, simplicity and straight forwardness of your SOP
7. They check correct reflection of who you are
8. They are looking for reason to admit you and reason to deny you

So just write a SOP without thinking much like what's gonna happen, or what it gonna be like. Just start writing SOP, reflect yourself on it. Keep it in some place for 2 days and different thoughts will come to your mind like what were good and what should be removed. Then rewrite against, edit again repeat until it will be a perfect one. Best of luck 😊😊

WHICH COURSES ARE ELIGIBLE FOR PR IN AUSTRALIA?

International Students have various reasons why they have chosen to study in Australia. The country, one of the top 3 favourite destinations of students seeking higher education, has helped its international graduates achieve success in their chosen career through its high academic standards and developed internship programmes. 

Graduates who decided to stay and work in Australia can look forward to job opportunities thanks to Australia’s strong and constantly improving economy. In order to live and work in Australia as a permanent resident (PR), aspirants can take advantage of the various pathways leading to permanent residency status. Three of the most common ways are via Skilled Migration, State Nomination or Employer Nomination Scheme.

Annually, Australia's Department of Immigration and Board Protection provides a list of occupations crucial in sustaining the need for higher skills contributing to the country's economic stability and development. By the recommendations of the Department of Education and Training, updated Medium and Long-term Strategic Skills List (MLTSSL) and Short-term Skilled Occupation List (STSOL), which is reviewed by Department of Employment, are released and implemented every 1st of July.

Students aiming to settle in Australia permanently should select the right course which has PR prospects and will continuously be in demand in the coming years. To provide you with examples, here are some of the sought-after courses with PR prospects:

Nursing and medical courses

Australia’s ever growing population depends in its highly skilled medical staff in providing healthcare. Medical and nursing courses attract thousands of local and international students determined to profess their passion and lay foundations to a promising career. Consistently being included in the skills lists, nursing is one of the desired courses in the medical field.

In the skills list are: Nurse Practitioner, Registered Nurse (Aged Care), Registered Nurse (Child and Family Health), Registered Nurse (Community Health), Registered Nurse (Critical Care and Emergency), Registered Nurse (Developmental Disability), Registered Nurse (Disability and Rehabilitation), Registered Nurse (Medical), Registered Nurse (Medical Practice), Registered Nurse (Mental Health), Registered Nurse (Perioperative), Registered Nurse (Surgical) and Registered Nurse (Paediatrics), Midwifery.

Education and teaching

Pursuing a career in the field of education holds power in making differences by inspiring students’ curious minds. Australia is regarded as one of the powerhouses in having excellent education standards known worldwide. International graduates pursing teaching occupations enjoy the high demand in education institutions. 

Teaching profession in the skills lists are: Early Childhood (Pre-Primary School) Teacher, Primary School Teacher, Secondary School Teacher, Special Needs Teacher, University Lecturer, Vocational Education Teacher, Teacher of English to Speakers of Other Languages.

Cookery, patisserie and hospitality

Courses under Cookery and Hospitalityfield not only promise an exciting career but also hold potential in obtaining permanent residency status. Passionate students invest in their career through quality Australian education and hands on work experiences. Whether your passion is in cooking, baking or managing hotels, Australia’s booming tourism industry is always in need of hospitable and passionate persons making a difference in their job.

Cookery, Patisserie and Hospitality jobs in the list are: Chef; Cafe or Restaurant Manager; Caravan Park and Camping Ground Manager; Hotel or Motel Manager; Licensed Club Manager; Bed and Breakfast Operator; Accommodation and Hospitality Managers; Baker and Pastrycook.

Computer and Information Technology (IT)

The rapid changing pace of technology has brought about creation of numerous computer and information technology courses. Specialising in hardware, software, network, security, website development courses, universities around the country including the professional arm, Australia Computer Society, continuously update the courses to maintain its competitiveness in the digital field. The demand for Information and Communication Technology (ICT) graduates is consistently in the rise to cope with the growing need of the industries.

ICT occupations in the skills list are ICT business Analyst, Systems Analyst, Analyst Programmer, Developer Programmer, Software Engineer, Computer Network and Systems Engineer, Software Tester, ICT Support Engineer, Web Developer.

Engineering

Australia is one of the frontrunners in the field of engineering. International students are drawn to the country to learn and kick start their careers in various specialisation. Engineers provide solutions, innovations and practical solutions to day to day challenges. They also design, create, built, manufacture, innovate and invent. Our world is better because of the creative minds and hard work of the engineers. Engineers are sought after in Australia to address the needs of the country in various aspects.

Occupations needed in Australia are Chemical Engineer, Materials Engineer, Civil Engineer, Geotechnical Engineer, Electrical Engineer, Electronics Engineer, Mechanical Engineer, Aeronautical Engineer, Agricultural Engineer, Environmental Engineer, and Industrial Engineer.

Accounting

Amongst the top course choices for international students, accounting coursecourse receives thousands of students aspiring to become successful accountants or auditors. Australia's strong and improving economy provides opportunities for international graduates follow their career path. Accountants are involved in forecasting budget, making decisions on company investments, research and development.

In the Medium and Long-term Strategic Skills List (MLTSSL) and in the combined list of eligible skilled occupations are Accountant (General), Management Accountant, Taxation Accountant, External Auditor, Corporate Treasurer.

Social Work

Considered one of the fastest growing occupations in Australia, social work courses attract international students who want to work closely with people afflicted with personal or social issues. Often described as the unsung heroes of modern times, social workers are but empowered ordinary individuals making extraordinary impact in the lives of others by giving advice, support and provides help to reintegrate socially displaced individuals into the society.

Considered one of the fastest growing occupations in Australia,social work courses attract international students who want to work closely with people afflicted with personal or social issues. Often described as the unsung heroes of modern times, social workers are but empowered ordinary individuals making extraordinary impact in the lives of others by giving advice, support and provides help to reintegrate socially displaced individuals into the society.

Graduates pursue social work and related occupations listed in the Medium and Long-term Strategic Skills List (MLTSSL) and in the combined list of eligible skilled occupations such as Social Worker, Community Worker, Welfare Worker, Welfare Centre Manager and Family Support Worker.

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Information Technology (IT) in Australia

An ever growing industry, IT plays an integral role in most industries today. An IT course is what facilitates you to design, coordinate, manage and administer computer-related activities of an organization. Ever since the world stepped into the digital age, IT has experienced unprecedented growth. The field has progressed exponentially and it shows no signs of slowing down soon. Along with a number of specializations offered in the course like programming, development, designing, multimedia, etc., the scope for an IT professional has never been better.

Benefits of doing IT in Australia

The Australian Qualifications Framework helps distinguish the Australian education system. It is a national policy that ensures a uniform progression of study. Globally recognized degrees and certifications make it easy for an IT graduate from Australia to find employment world over. Housing 8 of the top 100 universities in the world, Australia provides a world class learning experience and scholarship options for international students.

How to select universities

Despite having over 1100 education institutions to choose from, deciding on the right choice for IT education in Australia can be a tough decision. After all, a lot hinges on the choice you make. What needs to be decided before a university can be chosen is what you actually want from the university, for instance, whether you want the university with the best academic reputation or the university with the best placement track record. Once you have decided your own requirements, you can zero in on a university accordingly.

Requirements for Admissions in universities

To secure a place to study in an Australian university, you need to provide proof of your academic qualifications, the requirements of which vary from course to course and university to university. Along with that, as an international candidate, you will have to provide proof that you meet the required level of English Language proficiency before you apply to study Down Under.

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Neymar has AGREED Real Madrid move': Shock claims from Spain to stun footballing world

Real Madrid president Florentino Perez reportedly met with the father of Paris Saint-Germain forward Neymar to discuss a world-record transfer for the Brazil international.

Spanish source Diario Gol (h/t MailOnline's Jaime Wright) revealed how Perez had dinner with Neymar Sr. in Los Angeles, during which a potential deal worth £220 million dominated the agenda. Wright noted how Diario Gol also reported it may be 2019 before any such deal took place, despite Neymar Jr. wanting to move from the French capital next summer.

Talk of Neymar eventually joining Los Merengues has been growing recently. Eduardo Inda of OK Diario (h/t Bruce Archer of the Daily Express) helped stoke the rumours when he said earlier this month talks over a transfer were already taking place.

nda even revealed a deal is already set for ex-Barcelona star Neymar to return to La Liga in 2019 at a cost of £200 million. Los Blancos are willing to pay such a fee because they want the South American attacker to replace Cristiano Ronaldo, per Archer.

It may be premature to think about replacing Ronaldo, even though he's 32. After all, Real's talismanic No. 7 remains as prolific as ever, scoring nine goals in the group stage of the UEFA Champions League.

Ronaldo is still the main man for Los Blancos, a role Neymar would surely want should he move to the Spanish capital. A similar desire motivated the latter's decision to leave the Camp Nou and join PSG, according to former Barca centre-back Jeremy Mathieu, who revealed Neymar wanted to escape Lionel Messi's shadow, per an interview with EFE (h/t Sport).

There is no doubt Neymar is the headline attraction at PSG, even ahead of fellow attackers Edinson Cavani and 18-year-old sensation Kylian Mbappe. He has quickly become the creative and goalscoring talisman for the Ligue 1 leaders, netting 15 times and providing nine assists. 

There have been rumours of tension with manager Unai Emery, per Le Parisien (h/t Sport). It's something Real could take advantage of, especially with ESPN FC's Julien Laurens revealing other members of Emery's squad are tired of the preferential treatment the world's most expensive player receives.

Real will find it difficult to strike a quick deal for the man who only joined PSG for £200 million in the summer. However, the speculation won't go away and is sure to intensify when the two clubs meet in the UEFA Champions LFebruary. 

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हामी च्याटमा रमाउथियौ | सुरु-सुरुमा मिठा-मिठा कुराहरु त्यसपछि माया पिरती कुरा गर्थियौ | यस्ता यस्ता बात गर्दै समयहरु बिताउ थियौ | यो लामो रातको समय पनि कति थोरै लग्थियो | जब बिहान हुन्थियो लागि रहन्थियो कहिले साझ हुन्छ अनि फेरी त्यो च्याट गर्ने समयको आउछ भनि, साझको पर्खाइमा मेरा हरेक दिन बित्न थाल्यो | उनको आइडी कति खेर अनलाइन आउछ भन्दै म बेला बेलामा हेरी रहन्थिये | जब ढिलो हुन्थियो मनमा अनेक किसिमका भावनाहरु खेलिहल्थियो, के भयो होला, किन ढिलो गरेको होला, कतै केहि त भएन तर मेरा यस्तो सोचइलाई, उनको “हाइ”ले भंग गरिदिन्थियो | अनि आउथियो मेरा रमाइला पलका क्षणहरु, सुरु हुन्थियो मायाका कुराहरु, महान् जोडीहरुका प्रेम कथाहरु | म मेरो घर परिवार, मेरा बा आमा सबैलाई बिर्सिन्थ्ये, यति मात्रै नभएर धेरै पल्ट खाना खान पनि बिर्सिन्थिए | सोच्थे माया नै हो सबैथोक, सबैकुरा र यसलाई कसैले रोक्न सक्दैन | तर मलाई सबैभन्दा ठुलो डर थियो कतै उनले मलाई छोडेर जाने हुन् कि भनेर, किनभने उनलाई मैले चिनेको त्यै च्याटबाट थियो | साथीहरु भन्थे च्याटमा चिनेकोलाई विश्वास नगर धोका होला तर म यस्ता कुरालाई सुने पनि नसुनेको झैँ एक कानले सुनेर अर्को कानले उडाइ दिन्थे | प्रेममा एक किसिमको शक्ति हुन्छ, यस्तै यस्तै सोचेर मेरा मनका भावनाहरुलाई शान्त पार्थे | यो मेरो पहिलो प्रेम थियो | म मेरो मायालाई सुमधुर बनाउन अनेक प्रयत्न गर्थे | हाम्रो प्रेममा टुसा पलाउदैथियो, अब म मुना पलाउने आपेक्षामा थिए, यस्तै सोचाइमा मेरा हर दिन हर रात बित्न थाले | प्रेममा गोडमेल, मलजल गर्थे | उनी टाढा थिइन्, सोच्थे समय आए पछी भेट हुन्छ होला | मैले सुनेको थिए “Patience is the great virtue of love” धैर्यता नै मायाको प्रतिक हो भनेर | मन बहकिने गर्दथियो कता-कता टाढा पुग्थियो | त्यसैले त्यो दिन आउने पर्खाइमा तड्पिन थाले | भबिष्यको कुरा सोच्न पुग्थे | मेरो सोचाइ कहाँ सम्म थियो भने, मेरो प्रेम सफल हुन्छ अनि यो सफल प्रेमलाई सुमधुर सम्बन्धमा जोड्ने छु | उनिलाई सधैको लागि आफ्नो बनाउछु तर अचानक एकदिन उनि च्याटमा आइनन् | सोचे कतै विशेष कम पर्यो होला | भोलि आउछिन अनि सोध्छु भन्दै त्यो रात चित्त बुझाएर सुते | अर्को दिन पनि उनि आइनन् | मन छातपट्टि भयो | निन्द्रा लागेन, किन लागोस पनि जानी नजानी प्रेममा बाधिएको यो मन अनि त्यै पनि पहिलो प्रेम कहाँ चित्त बुझाउन सकिंदो रैछ र ? जति निदाउन प्रयत्न गरे पनि नसक्दा त्यो रात म सँग हरेर बिहान भै सकेको थियो | त्यसदिन मलाई निक्कै दिक्क लगेको थियो, आफ्नो जिउ आफैलाई भारी भएर आएको थियो | त्यसै-त्यसै गीतहरुको धुनमा आफुलाई कल्पनामा डुबाएर बिताउन थाले | साझ पर्दैथियो म अनलाइन गएर उनि आउने प्रतिक्षामा बसिरहेको थिए तर साझ सकिएर रात ढल्कदै थियो | अह ! उनि आइनन्, रुन मन लाग्यो मन भित्र आशु झरिसकेको थियो तर आखामा दर्साउन भने सकिन | अफलाइन म्यासेज पठाए, च्याट छोडेर नम्वर डायल गरे तर फोन अफ थियो | धेरै पल्ट प्रयास गरे तर लागेन | त्यो नम्वरमा सन्देश पठाए, उतर आउला कि भन्दै मोबाइल बारम्बार हेरे | बेट्री सकिएको छ कि भन्दै हेरे, छैन | मनमनै रिस उठ्यो उनिसँग अनि भगवानसँग, किन यत्रो संसारमा भगवानले मलाई मात्रै तड्पाएको होला भन्दै भगवानप्रति असाध्यै रिस उठ्यो | ४ दिन बिती सक्यो | के छ कसो छ केहि थाहा थिएन | पाचौ दिन उनि अनलाइन आइन् | मनमा रिसको आवेग थियो तर त्यो भन्दा धेरै माया थियो अनि सोधे किन यस्तो गरेको तिमीले न अनलाइन आउछौ न सन्देशको उतर छ, के भयो ? उनको च्याट गर्ने शैली हल्का परिवर्तन थियो, निरास र रुन्चे इमोमा म बिरामी छु भनिन् | मलाई एकदम निरास लाग्यो अनि डर पनि | रिसको बेलामा पठाको सन्देश र अफलाइन सन्देशको याद आयो बेकारमा गाली गरेछु | यस्तो भए पछी एकछिन मात्र च्याट गरेर उनि आराम गर्न जान्छु भन्दै गइन् | धेरै दिन अनलाइन आइनन्, धेरै डर लाग्यो कतै केहि त भएन अनि अर्को मनले सोचे केहि हुन्न ठिक भए पछी आउछिन् | तर धेरै दिन नआएपछी मैले खोजि गरे | उनको साथीलाई च्याटमा भेटे र उनलाई सोधे के भयो तिम्रो साथीलाई अनलाइन आउदिनन् त ? उनले भनिन्, “ए, त्यो त अर्को आइडी चलाउछे र उसको अर्को प्रेमी छ, तिमि पनि उसको प्रेमी हो ? हा हा हा त्यसले तिमीलाई फसाएछ, तिमि जस्ता २-३ जना केटा छन् | त्यो केटि एकदम फटाहा छे |” यस्तो सुन्दा म छानाबाट खसे जस्तो भए | म सोच्न पनि सक्दिन त्यो पल, मेरा आशु कति झरे होला ? कसैलाई नदेख्दै विश्वास गरेर ठुलो गल्ति गरेछु | असहिय पीडा भयो | त्यसबेला मलाई मेरो जिन्दगी न निल्नु न् ओकल्नु भए थियो |
अहिले सोच्छु कसैलाई मनैदेखी नै विश्वास गर्दा घात पाइदो रहेछ | साच्चै नै हो रहेछ “अन्त्यहरु सुरुवात भन्दा धेरै असजिलो हुदो रहेछ |” सुरु गर्दा थोरै बुझेको थिए तर मैले अन्त्यमा घात पाए पछि धेरै कुरा बुझे | धेरै सोच्छु अनि यो मस्तिस्कमा बारम्बार एउटा वाक्य याद आउछ “असल हुदा मुल्य चुकाउनु पर्दो रहेछ |” यस्तै-यस्तै गर्दै मेरा विरक्तिएका दिनहरु बिती रहेका थिए | यो संसारमा घातमा पर्ने संख्यामा मेरो नाम थपिएको थियो | एबम् प्रकारले मेरा दिनहरु बित्दै थिए, सम्झनाहरुले पोलेको छातीमा मलम ल्याउने कोशिश गरिरहेको थिए | सोचे भगवानले मलाई एउटा गलत मान्छेबाट छुटाएका हुन् | अथवा मेरो यो सिधा बाटोमा घुमेको बाटोको प्रवेश भयो | मैले आफैलाई समाल्नु पर्छ | साथीहरुको आट भरोसामा फेरी मैले मेरो अर्को जीवन पाए जस्तो लाग्छ | कसैले मलाई भनेको थियो “कोहिसँग केहि हुदैन, त्यो एउटा भ्रममात्र हो रे” यो वाक्य अहिले मेरो लागि सही साबित भएको छ | मेरो सोच सबै भ्रम रहेछ | उसलाई पाउनु मेरो सपना रहेछ |
यस्तै गरेर मेरो मनलाई भुलाउन च्याट मै रमाउन थाले | च्याट मार्फत धेरै साथीहरु बनाए, अनि मेरो कुराहरु सुनाउ थिए, मेरा मनका पीडाहरु हल्का हुन्थियो | अनि त्यस्तै च्याट गर्दै जादा एकदिन एकजना केटिसँग परिचय भयो | च्याट गर्दै जादा उनको बारे सोधे | उनको घर त मेरो गाउभन्दा पल्लो गाउमा रहेछ | मैले चिनेको रहेनछु | च्याटकै क्रममा उनि र म मिल्ने साथी भयौ | म उनको कुराहरु एकदमै सकारात्मक भेट्थे | उनको सोच एकदमै राम्रो थियो त्यसअर्थमा पनि म उनि प्रति आकर्षित हुदैथिए | हाम्रो मित्रता सुमधुर हुदैथियो | उनि र म यति नजिक भयौ कि त्यो मित्रता कति खेर मायामा परिणत भयो पत्तो भएन | कसैले प्रेम प्रस्ताब नराखी नै मायामा थियौ हामी | तर उनको बारे बुझ्दै जादा मलाई खिन्न लाग्यो, उनि म भन्दा उमेरले ३ वर्ष ठुली रहेछिन, अनि म भन्दा दुई कक्षामाथि पढदि रहेछिन | तर म सोच्थे माया अन्धो हुन्, न मायाले जात हेर्छ, न त उमेर नै | यही सोचेर मैले त्यो सम्बन्ध अगाडी बढाउदै थिए तर मलाई डर थियो यो समाजको, के भन्ने हो ?, अनि मेरो परिवारको ? मैले यस्तो गर्दा के होला ? मेरो बेइज्जत त हुन्छ तर मेरो परिवारको झन् बेइज्जत हुन्छ | आखिर मैले पनि त आफ्नो स्वार्थ मात्रै हेरेर भएन | परिवारमा बसेपछि मेरा बा, आमाका कुरा अथवा इज्जत बचाउनु पर्छ | त्यसकारण मैले त्यो मायालाई साथि मै फेरी लग्ने प्रयास गरे | मैले उनीलाई त भनिन तर म आफै उनिबाट टाढा हुन थाले | म च्याटमा त्यति जान छोडे | कहिले काही जान्थे | अहिले पनि जान्छु | के छ, कसो छ ? त्यति मै च्याट सिमित हुन्छ | उनि र म अहिले पनि राम्रो साथी छौ र खुशी पनि लाग्छ किनकि उनीलाई मैले सुरुमै धोका भन्ने चिजबाट बन्चित गरे, सुरुमै आफैलाई बुझाउन सके अनि उनको जीवनसँग खेलबाड गरिन |
कसैलाई चायर पनि पाइएन, कसैलाई पाएर पनि चाईएन | धिक्कार छ मेरो यो बिवास्ताको जिन्दगीदेखि | यो समाजको परिधिदेखि, कसैलाई मनबाट चाहेर पनि पाउन ग्राहो छ, कसैलाई यही समाजको कारणले गुमाउनु पर्दो रहेछ | आखिर यो समाज के गर्दा खुशी हुन्छ ? अरुको मन छिया-छिया भएर तड्पीएको हेर्दा खुशी हुन्छ कि अरुको दुख वेदनामा रमाउने हुन्छ ? बैशमा मातिएर ठिटाहरुसँग लठिएर हिड्दा पचाउने यो समाज, आफु भन्दा उमेरमा परिपक्कतासंगको चोखो सम्बन्धलाई नपचाउने यो समाज कस्तो समाज ?